Been feeling like shit 4 e past few daes..Thought that I wld b okay after confiding in some ppl..Diverting my thoughts to games n some other stuff..But the incident never fails to leave my mind..I remember every single detail vividly..So hard to eradicate everything..I feel extremely demoralised..Cant seem to concentrate on everything that I tried to do..
Why am I blaming myself for what had happened?..I dont think it's entirely my fault..Why is the blame on me entirely?..What wrong have I done?..Neglecting old friends?..I dont think so..Prioritising new friends?..Not at all..Being too nice to everyone & letting them step over my head all my life?..
ENTIRELY TRUE..
Izzit fate that I have to deal with all these?..Izzit my destiny to b so forgiving, regardless of the situation being my fault or others'..OMG..& why the hell am I talking bout fate & destiny here?..Whatever..Everything juz seems so meaningless & pointless now..My life is falling apart..Well..Assumptions..
Putting on a facade in front of my friends..Faking that I'm alright..But I'm not..Like
seriously..FUCK!!!!!..Why am I owaez deceiving myself?..Why cant I just let go of
the past..All the experiences that had happened to me..Are all vividly remembered till tis dae..Okay whatever..Pointless to be so emo & say anything bout it now..Like totally..
Venting out my anger here..Yeah..Will sure make myself feel better..But it will hurt ppl too..OMG..Why the hell am I thiking of others' feelings when all this while..Some ppl dont spare a thought on my feelings too when blatantly venting out their anger on me????????..Just coz of one ridiculous event tis have to be dragged until..I dunno..Until the dae I died????????..Yeah..Probably..
Ppl whom concerned bout me have been telling me the same over & over again..Dont think bout it anymore & dont be bothered by what had happened..Hmmmmmm..Dont/Cant be bothered..Sounds kinda familiar..Like wow..
How the hell am I supposed to move on..When the blame is being thrown to me..It's rather unfair..Like uh huh..It's not my fault & it will forever wont be..Then why am I still being bothered by it?..
What's the matter with me?..What's my FUCKING problem?..
Why am I blaming myself for what had happened?..I dont think it's entirely my fault..Why is the blame on me entirely?..What wrong have I done?..Neglecting old friends?..I dont think so..Prioritising new friends?..Not at all..Being too nice to everyone & letting them step over my head all my life?..
ENTIRELY TRUE..
Izzit fate that I have to deal with all these?..Izzit my destiny to b so forgiving, regardless of the situation being my fault or others'..OMG..& why the hell am I talking bout fate & destiny here?..Whatever..Everything juz seems so meaningless & pointless now..My life is falling apart..Well..Assumptions..
Putting on a facade in front of my friends..Faking that I'm alright..But I'm not..Like
seriously..FUCK!!!!!..Why am I owaez deceiving myself?..Why cant I just let go of
the past..All the experiences that had happened to me..Are all vividly remembered till tis dae..Okay whatever..Pointless to be so emo & say anything bout it now..Like totally..
Venting out my anger here..Yeah..Will sure make myself feel better..But it will hurt ppl too..OMG..Why the hell am I thiking of others' feelings when all this while..Some ppl dont spare a thought on my feelings too when blatantly venting out their anger on me????????..Just coz of one ridiculous event tis have to be dragged until..I dunno..Until the dae I died????????..Yeah..Probably..
Ppl whom concerned bout me have been telling me the same over & over again..Dont think bout it anymore & dont be bothered by what had happened..Hmmmmmm..Dont/Cant be bothered..Sounds kinda familiar..Like wow..
How the hell am I supposed to move on..When the blame is being thrown to me..It's rather unfair..Like uh huh..It's not my fault & it will forever wont be..Then why am I still being bothered by it?..
What's the matter with me?..What's my FUCKING problem?..