I think I'm being selfish most of the times..


Hope that others would just listen to my problems, whines, wants & needs..


Only mine..


Why must I care bout others' problems right???..


Coz their lives definitely do not revolve around mine..


But I was definitely wrong..


In life there's a need to give and take..


I haf no idea what changes my perceptions on stuff..


I mean..lots of stuff..


But I'm a more grateful person now as compared to last time..


I should be more contented with what I haf now..


Not asking for more or less..


Even so if I want more..I should do something to get my wants and needs..


I'm totally grateful that I still haf a thing called the brain..


& making full use of it is really wow..


N not forgetting another thing called the heart..


I haf no idea if I should regard myself as a matured person or otherwise..


Well I guess my maturity level has improved..


Well..at least in terms of my way of thinking on everything..


But I can be pretty unreasonable at most times too..


Just like yesterday's incident..


I'm totally stubborn to listen to e other party's side of the story..


ALL THE TIME..


Eveything just haf to go my own way everytime..


I guess I should stop thinking bout how miserable I am all the time..


How pathetic my life has been right now..


As in..there are others whose lives are pretty..I'm sorry to put it this way..Unfortunate & useless..


But..When people are being hit rock bottom..They will try their best to pick themselves up & continuing living again..


No matter how rich or poor people are..


It's how in the end..they achieve what they want in life eventually..


Sometimes I just haf to use my barin & heart and think things through before jumping to conclusions..


My weakness definitely..


I just find it too late to realise my mistakes after things had happened..


& no point regretting..


DAD..YOU'RE DEFINITELY MY

ROLE MODEL FOR LIFE..


You've been through worst experiences in your life as compared to me..


Still..I haf no idea how you haf the courage & strength to put your bloody pasts behind you & move on pretty past..


Or rather..Instantly..


I totally envy you..


Admidst everything that u've to handle..


You really care bout what's happening to me..


Love you Dad..


I want to be as strong as my Dad..