I think I should stop predicting what would happen to the band, my friends and to me in years to come. 'Cause what I've have been predicting come true. All of them. & this is certainly not a lie.

I have been hoping all my life that I won't have to go through fighting & settling things with them. Once is definitely fine with me. But going through it over & over again, they can absolutely fuck their own dumbshit mouths.

I apologise for the tons of vulgarities that I will use for this blog entry.

Firstly, I totally know that the confrontations or rather, meeting.....Okay, whatever we wanna call it. It was redundant TO THE MAX. 'Cause I am sure that the people present there knew "WHERE THE PROBLEM LIES" actually. So, why must they talked 'bout other rubbish stuff. In case you all not know, "they" refer to this 'superior' group in the band a.k.a the ELITES. Oh so they had label themselves.

Okay, I gonna be damn bitchy here. I am so straightforward that I can hurt others as well. Sorry. Anyway, so much for calling themselves that. Especially when every single one of them have no conscience, awareness & LOTSA self-reflections before they open their dumbshit mouths to comment 'bout anything & everything under the sun.

To think that we are afraid of them & so there's plenty of "SEGREGATION OF FATS" btn the "COMMITTE & MEMBERS"? Omg. Can't they just say straight to the point & not gay around the bush & fuck others with all what they had caused in the band.

The rest of us are so much happier 'cause we mix around with each other, bond so well with one another. & don't they realise that they are the ones "SEGREGATING" away from the rest of the band members? Where have all their brains gone to? Now, "THERE'S WHERE THE PROBLEM LIES."

All the bullshit all of them had done during announcements & speaking up are totally redundant & amusingly, funnily crappy. They love twisting their words around their gay & ugly mouths, & made others the guitly ones. What's up with that? Seriously, they can do whatever they want in the band, & the rest of us can't? & for them to hate whoever whom mixing with me is totally damn childish.

The members I mix with are absolutely innocent & sure, their brain cells are extremely working 24/7. Unlike theirs. So, no point cursing them, putting them down & making fun of them all the time. The one who should be pushed around is ME. 'Cause I caused all this to happen. If it isn't for me, the situation of the band will be totally different.

Ignorance & avoidance from them are what I've done all this while. I am happy & satisfied with my decision of leaving that group. I am glad that I open my eyes & observe both sides of everything happening in the band. If I had not, I would havce suffered.

Yesterday what L had said 'bout me is totally redundant. Redundant like how he thinks 'bout every single thing. Uncovering tha past of "ALL THE HAPPY WE HAD SHARED" is like whattttttttt?????????? & the main problem lies is actually the conflict btn both of us. Not btn me & some other random ppl. That's my own problem for me to deall with all the random individuals. Who's he to question me all that? Off - focus!!!!!!!! No wonder he failed English.

I am glad that I am wise enough not to be trapped with all his "sweet words." I have been hurt ever since I forged friendship with L. It's not gonna happen again now. I'm moving on.

"Now I can see what kind of person you are now." Hah. Glad for L to know that. Wow. I've never realise that he totally observe me. It's just an honour. Seriously, I deserve more from that clique. Keep up the good job, but there's still LOTSA improvements.

Everyone, by now, should know what kind of person I am. If you give me that goddamn heck care attitude, you get bullshit from me. Eye for an eye. People don't deserve my respect if they don't watch what they say. & the way they stand in front of others to advise etc.

I really appreciate what the rest had done for me after that redundant, dumbshit meeting. Thanks. You guys made my day. I totally need the comforts ytd. "You deserve no friends at all." Well, I have good & the the bestest friends ever. They know that I won't open up & tell others my side of the story 'bout everything sensitive. It's my life & I'll deal with them on my own. I don't influence others to hate the people I'm having conflict with. All my friends have the freedom to decide & think. & L has no right to say that to me. Seriously, I'm wayyyyyyyyyyy better than every single one of them.

In fact, the majority is wayyyyyyyy better than the minority. It's not that all of us are against them. It's just that we are disgusted with their behaviours, the way they talk & their mannerisms towards others.

Apart from all these, I'm gonna selfish now. I totally made the right decision of quitting right after this concert. & I won't step into the band room ever again. Never. So now, I'm gonna try my best to help my section members. I have a nice caring section & I'm sure they will do perfectly fine without me. & if anyone thinks I'm qutting 'cause the ELITES, I'm certainly not. I'm quitting simply 'cause of my studies. That's my sole purpose of changing my course of study from MI to Poly. To excel academically. Not to be so caught up with band politics or whatsoever. I'm neglecting my musical talent but I won't regret my decision.