Yesterday I cried to sleep. I totally have no idea what's the reason behind all the tears.



One thing that I truly hate about myself - bottling up all the problems & just break down at any given point of time.



Been breaking down alot lately. I am too stubborn. Just can't bring myself to share everything with others.



I'm totally back to square one. Feeling hopeless again.





One more deadline to go. After tomorrow, end of first sem. Luckily, I never procrastinate and do the assignment at the last minute. Spent the whole day doing the updated outline & final essay. Whatever. Looks like a crappy piece of work. Fingers cross that I'll pass.



Everyone's rushing for tomorrow's deadline. No fear guys. Chill pill. Going school tomorrow in the morning. For the screening (forgotten for what module). Then printing out of all the essays and photocopying of sources (hope the machines don't break down tomorrow 'cause I know everyone will do the same thing as I am). Then I think is the photography project review (or whatever it is called). & then submittion of the assignment. All the best tomorrow!





Two things that are holding me back from going the Bangkok trip - money & family problems. I do not care 'bout the shopping and buying of souvenirs part. All that I care 'bout is enough money for my expenses when in Bangkok. Gosh. Till now no money at all for the trip. I'm hoping for the best though. Can't back out now.



I absolutely feel that I'm growing up sooooooooo fast. I feel like a tremendously old person now. Dad keeps saying 'bout what will happen to the family when I'm away, blahblahblah. Argh. I'm totally gonna leave Singapore with a heavy heart.



If Dad thinks I'm gonna enjoy myself & be oblivious 'bout what's happening to the family right now, he better thinks hard. I surely know what gonna happen. Dad will just suffer when I'm away. 'Cause I'm his pillar of support in looking after Mum & Grandma.



Needless to say 'bout the person. I'm so speechless that I lazy to comment 'bout the person.





Dad, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I beg you. Don't make me feel like I'm regretting for agreeing to go for the Bangkok trip in the first place. I'm going there for study purposes. Please assure me that you gonna be okay while I'm away. Though I know that's not gonna be the outcome.